Thoughts about this blog

I've been struggling lately with what to post on this blog. I feel like lately all I've done is post "highlights" which I want to remember, but that also bothers me because I don't want to become one of those blogs that only does that. I don't want to gloss over the bad and paint this picture that my life is rainbows and roses because let's be honest: it isn't. Surprise!

I'm realizing that everyday I have to sort out my priorities. Does anyone else feel like that? Yes, I work eight hours a day, so what am I doing with the remaining 5 hours until I go to bed? Sometimes I can tell you I was really productive, that I worked out, made a delicious dinner, went grocery shopping, cleaned the bathroom, read some of my book, painted some of my pictures, etc. Other nights (aka most nights) I'll probably look ashamed and "gloss" over the evening that consisted of having the desire to do absolutely nothing so we order pizza, sit on the couch and watch something, and then I end up having a super long conversation with Paul about how I feel like a lazy piece of crap that has done nothing with her life and everyone else is sooo good at being productive and I stink at it and I'm lazy and I don't know how to change it and sometimes I don't want to change it, etc, etc. (Paul has his answers down pat to this conversation, because let me tell you, this conversation happens a lot.)

I know that every day I have a choice, but really, I think sometimes ordering pizza and watching something is not only ok, it is needed. I try to be productive every day, but when it comes down to it, who really cares? I mean, really, who am I trying to impress? Yes, I work out to take care of my body, yes, I try and make dinner every night because it's healthier and cheaper in the long run, and yes, I try and keep our house "clean" because it's unsanitary otherwise. But so what if some days that stuff doesn't get done?  Sometimes I get really irritated at all this "glorification of busyness" that seems to go on all around us. I feel like I'm being judged by these invisible "busy" people who do everything all the time. That's why I have to take breaks from reading other people's blogs and facebooking. All we post about are things that are keeping us "so busy".

Which brings me back to my point of thinking about what I actually post on here. I don't want to give off the impression that I am this always-busy-happy-energetic-life-is-perfect person. Because I'm not, as most of you very well know.

So here's my challenge to myself: to stop acting like the busier I am, the higher status I have. To remember who is really judging me, and to remember His loving words of wisdom: "Be still, and know that I am God."

WIW: Week 4

A good Saturday to me would go something like this: sleep in, go to Salt Lake, meet up with little sister, go shopping, get talked into buying some skinny jeans AND nice brown boots by little sister (Seriously. This girl has fashion sense! I think I've found my new shopping pal), get some Chick-Fil-A, do more shopping (with giftcards. Makes spending soo much more appealing because it's free!), then meet up with Dad at the best little french bakery in downtown Salt Lake (Gourmandise. DIVINE. I have introduced a countless number of people to this place because I've been obsessed ever since I was introduced about 6 years ago) and have a lovely little time. Yep, sounds like a perfect Saturday to me. I'll have to make those happen more often. . . when I get more giftcards.

WIW: Week 3

That's right. It has dumped snow here. In case you can't tell from the picture above, it is as high as our porch.  Still. And this happened about a week ago. (No thanks to the negative degree weather we've been having!) I heard we got 13 inches? Luckily we have a jeep and don't work too far from home, so we were able to escape any accidents. Oh Utah, I love thee, but sometimes I curse you when I walk outside and my boogers freeze. . .